Help Me Out Janelle

I was forewarned about hyper focusing on the good. I'm still healing from focusing my real energy on fake realities. My lesson was to pay attention to the power of my thoughts, because my mind was forming the reality I feared. 92 weeks ago, I was packin me & my babies bags so we could move to Miami and find peace. I no longer cared about my partnerships & community success because it was costing me too much.
My family was dismayed & uncontrollable arguing was our reality. I truly dispise arguing. However, I will defend myself to no end, which forces me to match the same energy breakin me down. I was crying, having panic attacks & singin Janelle Monae songs like my life depended on it.
While I do acknowledge the negative, I don't breath life into it. Not for anyone. Sometimes, I loose my focus & join the circus. But what do you expect. Not even Earth Angels can camouflage pain .
The only love my heart approaches
Your tender eyes fill mine w/roses
I drink ur wine
And never will my heart dry inside
Or be denied
Walk like a lonely fool in Prague
Singing a love song & the words I wrote
I wrote for two
Gentle as a lullaby @ night
I hear u humming private melodiess
Ur near
BaBopByeYa, where r u my darling?
BaBopByeYa, can u hear me calling?
Rewind the clock
Our time's approaching
Give is the eyes to guide ya most when
We have no light to see thruout all our darkest days
And troubled ways (Meet me @ the door by the garden) 3x's
(I'll be waiting there)
BaBopByeYa, they kno all about u
BaBopByeYa I will leave w/o u
Ojos miran hacia la luna (Eyes look to the moon)
Evitan un mundo tan triste
(Avoid a world so sad)
Dominado bajo el odio
(Ruled under the hate)
Donde el amor no exiate
(Where there is no love)
Dame en su refugio
(Give me refuge in ur Kingdom)
De la oscuridad pelogrosa
(From the dangerous darkness)
Espero en la esquina, Querida
(I'll wait @ the corner, my love)
Busco la llamanda amorosa
(I'll search for the call of lomust Like a lonely matador@ night
Fighting in the darkness for light
I won't stop until I hear the call of love
And when I'm alone
U r near to me
U have made a home in my memory
There u will abide for forever
And I will keep u warm in the night (Like a lonely matador @ night)
(Fight in the darkness for the light)
In the face of an awful danger
He risks his life to save her
Lowly manger
Arms of strangers
To me
Allude peruse me
Truly
I hear echos of ur laughter in the corner of my mind
While I memorize each detail of ur intricate design
In ur hair there is a symphony
Ur lips, a string quartet
They tell stories of a Neon Valley Street
Where we 1st met
Now somewhere time pursues us
As we love in Technicolor
But I dwell in silence on ur words
Which move me like none other.This time I shall be unafraid
& violence will not move me
This time we will relax
This time we will stay in our movie
I see beyond tomorrow
This life of strife & sorrow
My freedom calls & I must go
I must go... (3x's)
If any of you find yourselves leaving one painful reality to another, sing this song & feel the power. You, my love, can do anything u put your mind to. I'm always cheering for you. However, for my cheers yo count, you must do your work.
Manifest responsibly Luv Bugs